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| Sunday, February 8th, 2009 | | 4:45 pm |
Valentine's day is soon.
But this has nothing to do with that. I'm not entirely sure what I wanted to write about today. All I know is I wanted to write. I don't think I'm exceptionally talented at it. I don't think I'm exceptionally talented at anything in particular. And that is disappointing. I thought by now, I would be inclined to do something (anything) one way or another. But I have this apathetic steak that is both self-defeating and apparently quite annoying. I never really care that much about anything, because I am afraid to be disappointed, which most times is completely justified. I am, however, not a sad person. In fact I am usually smiling with those I love. Maybe laughing at some observational humor, or a Simpsons quote or two. I think that finding pleasure in the small moments in life, like a joke, or finding money in a pant pocket is absolutely what it's all about. It is those moments that are not forced and you can't help but smile. I've been complaining a lot lately, instead of really relishing (yum) these moments. I've been sulking in my "poor me" attitude for a few weeks now, and even I'm sick of me. There is a lot to be thankful for and even more to smile about. Honestly, I think it's the lack of cable. Yeah, yeah. Hate on Tv if you will, but it's my oldest and dearest friend, and I've been with out him for awhile. "Television! Teacher, mother, secret lover."- Homer Jay Simpson. Fin. | | Monday, December 1st, 2008 | | 11:19 pm |
Sometimes I write funny things.
PENIS ATTACKED BY SHARK. As some of you may have heard, and seen, Patrick Heaney was injured, and is now in a sling and arm splint. We here at SHARK ATTACK INC. would like to dispel any rumors of muggings, suicide attempts, and or disgruntled goats. It was just another night in, for Patrick "Penis" Heaney. Whilst enjoying another sifter full of a 1876 Godet Fine Cognac, heard a knock at the door. When Patrick inquired about the identity of the visitor, the voice simply replied "Candy Gram." Thinking it was another romantic gesture from his long time partner and life companion, Michael Delgado, he opened the door. Only to be brutally attacked by a Great White SHARK. And I don't mean his beautiful horse. Oh the irony. He suffered many deep abrasions and had to immanently seek medical attention. Patrick was given over 20 stitches and had over 13 SHARK teeth removed from his forearm. The SHARK in question, maintains that this is the first and only innocent, but we here at SHARK ATTACK INC. have uncovered some disturbing footage:      | | Friday, November 28th, 2008 | | 12:37 am |
Some funny things on Craigslist.
I've been meaning to start saving a posting these. Maybe I have too much time on my hands. And Maybe I'm just more hilarious then you. That's probably it. ENJOY. san diego craigslist > north SD county > free stuff please flag with care: Free Owl Box w/ Bees! (Vista) Reply to: sale-933776223@craigslist.org [?] Date: 2008-11-25, 10:07AM PST Last year we put a brand new Owl Box in our Tree; This year we got bees instead. They've constructed a huge hive on the inside and have been there for several months now. With two young kids who enjoy playing under that tree, we cannot take the risk despite the huge benefit the bees bring. You will need to remove the box from the tree - as it is pretty high up. And, you must not kill the bees. Thanks! Location: Vista it's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests PostingID: 933776223 Copyright © 2008 craigslist, inc. terms of use privacy policy feedback forum | | Thursday, October 23rd, 2008 | | 12:17 am |
FUCK IT MAN.
What kind of fuckery is this? You made me miss the Slick Rick gig. You thought I didn't love you when I did. Can't believe you played me out like that. No you ain't worth guest list. Plus one of all them girls you kiss. You can't keep lying to yourself like this. Can't believe you played yourself like this. Rulers one thing but come Brixton. Nobody stands in between me and my man. 'Cause it's me and Mr Jones. What kind of fuckery are we? Nowadays you don't mean dick to me. I might let you make it up to me. Who's playing Saturday? What kind of fuckery are you? Side from Sammy you're my best black Jew. But I could swear that we were through. I still want to wonder 'bout the things you do. Mr Destiny 9 and 14. Nobody stands in between me and my man. 'Cause it's Me and Mr Jones. | | Wednesday, August 20th, 2008 | | 4:29 pm |
ALSO. Sunni's Bulletin.
«Back to Bulletin Board Read Bulletin Show All Bulletins This User Has Posted From: peanut butter and jenni Date: Aug 20, 2008 9:42 AM Subject: 24 about ur # 4... i think im still drunk Body: Can YOU answer 24 questions about YOUR number 4? 1) Whats their first name AHlexUH 2)Whats their last name? PARAOSHHHHHHHHHH...OS SOMETHIN LIKE THAT 3) Is this person one of your friends? DUH 4) Is this person smart? LIKE CATERPILLER!!! 5) Is this person older than you? NOBODY IS OLDER THAN ME! 6) When's the last time you saw this person? 4AM 7) Do you love this person? HECK YES UMS 8) Are you related to this person? NO. JUST HER SISTERS. 9)Do you have nicknames for each other? YEPPERS 10) Are you always together? MOSTLY. 11) Do you think this person will repost this? YES. 12) Why Is this person your #4 CUZ JEN IS NUMBER ONE, RYAN IS NUMBER TWO AND HOLLY IS NUMBER TREE. GOOD ENOUGH ANSWER? 13) Have you ever seen this person cry? SHE IS USUALLY DEAD INSIDE. BUT YES, I HAVE. 14) Does this person love you? LIKE THE COREYS LOVE EACHOTHER. 15) Do you tell them a lot about your life? EVERYTHING.... 16) Doing anything with them soon? PROBABLY TONIGHT 17) If yes, what? UNDECIDED 18) Would you have them at your wedding? SHE WILL BE IN MY WEDDING 19) What's something this person is obsessed with? BESIDES ME.... PEPSI AND MYSPACE 20) Does this person make you laugh? LIKE THE DICKENS! 21) Have they ever met your family? YES SHE HAS, AND SHE BEHAVED 22) Do you trust this person? ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO HAS NEVER GIVEN ME A REASON NOT TO. 23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? NIGHTLY 24) Nickname? MALEXA Repost this as: "can you answer 24 about your #4?" | | 3:54 pm |
| | Friday, June 13th, 2008 | | 5:07 pm |
Feeling not too attractive.
Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything. Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about. And that's what you get for falling again, you can never get him outta your head. It's the way that he makes you feel, it's the way that he kisses you It's the way that he makes you fall in love. She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and her killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men. And that's what you get for falling again, you can never get him outta your head. It's the way that he makes you cry, its the way that he's in your mind. It's the way that he makes you fall in love. | | Sunday, June 8th, 2008 | | 11:27 pm |
A poem.
I lay my head to sleep a wink. Before I can I sart to think. These words I write, (Try as I might.) Are less then words. They're only ink. I wrote that. | | Wednesday, June 4th, 2008 | | 4:14 pm |
So. I'm supposed to be cleaning my room. But I'm not. On the flip side. The whole house is really very clean (for once). No dishes. No dust bunnies. And I have me to thank for it. Thank you Alexa Lauren Parashos, you're pretty fucking fantastic. You're welcome Alexa, you're not so bad your self. I honestly feel like my life is turning around. I'm waking up so positive these days. Not that anything has changed. But. I'm only making me and the people I really care about happy. That is all. I'm SICK to death of the judgment I've received. So I'm ignoring it. I DON'T CAREEEEEEEE. Honestly, try me. There is a reason why I love Holly. She really listens. And I'm not kidding, with both ears. I can tell her things and get an intuitive response, because she actually takes the time to hear what I have to say and formulate a response, not in reference to, but in reaction to what I am talking about. I like to think I do the same for her. My woahs are her's. So it is quite easy (admitantly) to be interested. Our boats' still a float. Their could potentially be an "ICE BERG STRAIGHT AHEAD". But I think we are smart enough to avoid it. Or at least try. I also love my sisters more and more everyday. And am enjoying watching them grow in to beautiful adults. I know life is hard. They are starting to figure that out now. But it's nice to see the innocence of a 19 year old. It really puts life into perspective. Like, who is excited about borrowing an ID to get margaritas at Chilis? Or standing outside of U31 nervous that her fake ID wont work. It's quite darling. And I realize life is so funny, because thing's like that were SO important then. And now that I'm grown (sorta), it's not even a problem the crosses my mind. Which leads me to think that ALL of this is all temporary. And the saying that "This too shall pass", is extremely true. More bigger and brighter problems lay ahead, but none of this is permanent. Except for a positive attitude. Which I can strive to achieve everyday. And with the help of some wonderful people I believe it is possible. I'm sick of your negativity. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. So leaf me alone. | | Wednesday, April 30th, 2008 | | 3:21 am |
And I know we swore we'd make more of ourselves. But this plot is literally our lot in life.
I really love Cursive sometimes. Can you pay my bills? Rent.= $ 450 Parking tickets x 3.= $ 90 SDGE.= $ 60 Cox Cable.= $ 65 Groceries.= $ 100 Classes. = $ 150 Books.= $ 100 Gas.= $ Arm+leg. FUCK. Dorothy, it seems you'll never understand. This here land is everything we have. Every sweat-stained collar, every dollar, every bent and bloodied spur. We're not the kids that we once were. We can't be the adults we want to be. | | Monday, April 7th, 2008 | | 4:00 am |
What you doing. Nothing chilling at the Holiday Inn.
Alright. Number one. I got a job. I'm hosting and busing at Dick's Last Resort. Eventually Serving. I'm pretty freaking happy with the job. I'm enjoying being able to say whatever I want to people. And they all just take it like total fucking assholes. And then they laugh. Parking downtown blows my freaking mind. I hate the Padres. Like honestly. So many home games. 84 in total. Which is great as far as tips. But I think I need to get air lifted there because having a car is a total bust. So. 11:30 tomorrow. Come visit you jerks. Number two. Tomorrow I'm going to the Casbah for a Fascination show. They are actually super excellent. And I'm excited to get drunk with all my friends. On the flip side. I honestly have been drinking too much. I took the day off today and I feel a ton better. But I guess back to normal tomorrow night. I just have been going out a ton. And it's been so hilarious lately. I don't want it to stop. Last night we went to some awkward bar in Chula Vista to see a friend's friend DJ. It was a lot of fun. And the fucking bartenders were these three asian ladies. Who were cracking me up the whole time. I love your Baby Phat hot shorts girls, and the press on nails. Classy. Number Three. I've been doing a lot of sewing lately. I'm finally getting all the shit done that I said I would. Being so broke. I realize how many clothes I've bought with the intention of fixing them, but never got around to it. So now I have. And I'm really enjoying being 80 years old. I think I'm going to start knitting a few things here and there. Ps. Thanks for all the yarn Holly Jean. I love you dear. Lastly. I've been pretty happy lately. I am really thankful for everyone in my life right now. I'm having a lot of fun being single. And I didn't think I would. I was totally expecting to crawl back to that asshole. But everyone has really put a lot of things in perspective. And I realize just how young I am and how much more I get to do before I get super cereal. I am however almost transfer status. If I get all A's and B's in my next 2 semesters I can apply for real college (again) in the Fall. Woot. It is going to feel so good to have a Degree. It does bother me that some stupid fucking piece of paper means so much, and costs so much. I am pretty fucking okay right now. And it's really great. | | Sunday, March 30th, 2008 | | 4:23 am |
| | Friday, March 21st, 2008 | | 7:18 am |
Words I KNOW in Greek.
01: Mom.- Mite ra. 02: Dad.- Pate ras. 03: Yes.- Ne. 04: Good morning.- Kalimera. 05: Good night.- Kalispera. 06: Milk.- Galla. 07: Water.- Nerroh. 08: Fruit.- Froota. 09: Good.- Kala. 10: How are you?- Ti kanis. 11: Bread.- Pso mee. 12: Christ.- Khristo. 13: Spoon.- Koutali. 14: Grandma.- Yia ya. 15: Grandpa.- Pappou. 16: Godfather.- Nou no. 17: Godmother.- Nou na. 18: Cheers.- Yassou. 19: Spanking.- Exochos. 20: Kiss.- Fi li. 21: My name is..- Me lene.. 22: I want..- The lo.. 23: Come.- E la. 24: I love you.- Saga po. 25; My darling.- A ga pi mou. 26: Salad.- Salata. 27: School.- Skholio. 28: Friend.- Filos. 29: Big.- Megha los. 30: Small.- Mikros. 31: Nice.- O reos. 32: Today.- Simera. 33: Money.- Lefta. 34: Coffee.- Ka fes. 35: Little bird.- Pouliki. 36: Shit.- Skata. 37: Napkins.- Petseta. 38: Aunt.- Theia. 39: Uncle.- Theios. 40: Vomit.- Emetos. 41: Stomach.- Stomnachi. 42: Amen.- Amin. 43: Christ has died.- Khristos anesti. 44: Christ is risen.- Alithos anesti. 45: Poop.- Kaka. 46: Fuck off.- A gamisou. 47: Butt. -Golo. 48: Underwear.- Sovrako. 49: Jump.- Opa! 50: House.- Spiti. 51: Hallelujah.- Alleluia. 52: What's their name?- Pos se lene? 53: Soup.- Zoumi. 54: Towel.- Panike. 55: Watermelon.- Karpouzi. That's all I remember for right now. It's sad that at age three to five I was basically fluent. With an accent and everything. These are turly the only words I remebered and their translations. I'm going to start learning to speak Greek again. I understand it. It's just harder to speak then it seems. This list will be edited as more words surface. | | Wednesday, March 19th, 2008 | | 1:03 am |
I got a new boo.
So. Today I finally got that fish I can't afford. But. I love him. His name is Sushi. I thought the irony was too good to pass up. He's a black gold fish. Which are the only kind that don't totally creep me out. Orange is such an awful color. Anyway. He is a joy. I hope all of you can meet my little baby boo. Also. There is this beautiful ally cat that keeps coming to my door every night around ten. I've fed it a few times. And I think I'm going to unofficially adopt it. I always do this. I collect stray anybodies. On a side note. I think I might work at Baja Betty's in Hillcrest. I'm there drinking for cheap anyways (And I mean three dollar giant drinks) and a good friend works there. So I'll see how this all pans out. They are looking for people though. And I was told they walk with about 120 a night. Just like the Diner used to be back in the day. Oh and speaking of that place. I guess on the board in the managers office it like says in all caps ALEXA IS NOT ALLOWED IN THE DINER EVER. And I guess it's underlined too. I really really got a kick out of this. It's amazing how people I could care less about still obsess about me. But I guess it's not uncommon with those that I have left. Today was great. Tanisha and I hung out outside and loved every minute of sun. I can NOT wait for summer. Winter is an awful time for skinny people. I constantly freeze to death. To bad it was soo cold later tonight. I think I got a fever. I didn't wear a jacket all night. I took my temperature it was almost a hundred. I took some meds and I feel a thousand times better. I can't even begin to express my unyielding love for advil, and all that is does for me. I literally would marry it. It's hard being this little. People do NOT realize how tiny I am. I think it's because I am such a loud person, everyone assumes I'm pretty tough. Which is true mentally. But physically. Okay. I could fight if I had too. Honestly though. I feel like a rag doll sometimes. I am yanked by some people, against my will. And I am powerless to stop it. I've been picked up, pushed, swung around, thrown over someones shoulder, and carried more times then I'd like to admit. It is quite embarrassing at moments. Yes. I totally get it. Your big. I'm small. No need to be a show off. Rant. A picture of my baby.  Also. I miss Mimi (at my moms house).  | | Friday, March 7th, 2008 | | 4:20 am |
Well, have another pancake Roseanne.
There has been a lot going on. I don't know if anyone reads this. But. It is truly a outlet for all my pent up shit. I just like the process of getting it all out anyway. First thing is first. I ended my 3 and a 1/2 year relationship with Scott. It was not an easy process. I guess after all that time, I just got tired of being abused. Both physically and mentally. I know it's easy to turn a blind eye when your so brain washed like I was. I honestly hadn't been "in love" with him for almost a year before we broke up. But I didn't think that I could survive with out him. But I can. And am. I realize now what he did, by constantly putting me down. I get that he was trying to "keep" me. Right now, even the word boyfriend makes me nauseous. All I hear when I hear boyfriend is: control. I'm not even sure I believe in the whole notion of relationships. I mean. What do I gain by possessing this other person under the constraints of these words. I don't want to be owned by anyone, and I don't want anyone who is willing to be. I don't know if I want anyone at all at this time. I was seeing this guy for a bit. But I couldn't believe how serious he wanted to take it after only one month. And I felt my self feeling guilty that I didn't "love" him back. What's wrong with me. Also, he did NOT find me funny. He thought all my jokes were in bad taste and "mean" in nature. I wondered how he could love me if he didn't love my jokes. That's a HUGE part of me. That's my whole family, that's how we cope. Also, I was given a speech about how young and naive I am. There was defiantly a generation gap, according to this 24 year old. He didn't like tv that much. Especially all the stupid shit I love. I couldn't take it anymore. I started getting a really sick feeling when I was around that guy. And I had to stop seeing him. I literally almost had a mental break down trying to explain to him why I might and don't not want a boyfriend at all, let alone have the capacity to love someone. This seemed so unreasonable to him. Like I was crazy. Like, dude. I love after one month. And I'm crazy. After this point, I am DONE with love. I'm not seeking it. I don't want it. I don't even care about it. I want to spend time with those who truly appreciate the person I am, and my sense of humor. And lately, it's been working out well. I totally feel the most like myself, that I've felt in years. No one calls me stupid. No one says I'm not funny. Everything I want to do is what I do. And more often then not, I have great days. Certainly, being out of work an broke affords me a lot of time to ponder all of these deep subjects. It is honestly important to have this time to myself. I am bored. But it is interesting to really relax on a new level. My job situation, however, is starting to stress me out. I have no money. I'm waiting for my tax return and my unemployment to come through. I think I might work at MINT. Chloe put in a good word for me. Hopefully that will work out. I love that store. Truly. And yes. My nearly 4 year stint ended at the Corvette Diner. I really loved that place. I did. I made great friends and have so many memories I would never want to give up. It is just so sad that one big fat horrid bitch could ruin an entirely functioning restaurant. She took it from what it used to be to what it is now, which is basically a mecca for crappy tips and homeless people. And yes, I completely, 100% blame her for the bad sales and the severe decline in the quality of guests. I can't stand it. I honestly was going to quit soon anyway. But, I really didn't want to be fired. She knew that and she hated me so, you can guess. I know this lady. I've met her a thousand times. It's so funny, because they all look and act the same. Big. Fat. Bad teeth. Bad balding hair. Saggy boobs. She has 2 outfits, and they give her the absolutely most perfect camel toe I've ever seen. I want to get a picture. It's these fat mid-western chicks. Every time. She's ruined the place I used to love, but worse she made it totally personal. She has managed to make it totally obvious that she wanted to get rid of me and my friends and a boat load of others. Sadder still. She has made one of the people I liked the most totally turn it to her. Oh well. It feels good to get that out. Summing up. I need a job. Wont you help me? Ask around, let me know, and I will bake you cookies. I already owe Chloe a mani-pedi. But that means I get one too! Right now, I'm enjoying this. All situations continue to be hilarious. Though I haven't been sleeping. Well in 30 minute increments. But, I think that once I get this job and money situation squared away I'll be able to finally get a good night sleep. Or not. I am thankful for all those in my life right now whom enjoy me for who I am. And letting me know that I'm not a retard. Most of the time. Current Mood:  satisfied | | Friday, November 2nd, 2007 | | 6:20 pm |
By and by.
My little sister is in this Perez Hilton blog.  No. She is not the drawn in stick figure. But she is the blondie in the window. Current Mood: happy | | 5:49 pm |
| | Wednesday, October 17th, 2007 | | 12:17 pm |
Its winter.
I need winter clothes. I'm looking at my closet. And I'm angry. Why did I buy this and that last year? I must have been on the "get a million pairs of boots" kick, but no long sleeve shirts. I'm going shopping with Scott for a little today then I have work. Oh by the way. My boyfriend got a job at apple. We gots the hook ups. Also, we have the AA hook up. For all of you that need christmas presnts. Let me know. This is all for now. I'll update later. PS. I know what Im getting all my friends for christmas. You will all just die, or be really stoked. Either one is okay with me. Current Mood:  cold | | Thursday, October 4th, 2007 | | 2:00 pm |
Lords and Ladies.
I have not updated in a freaking long time, but since I let early for cramps I do believe this is a great time to do thus-ly. Okay. Number one. I'm in North Park again and I couldnt be happier. Scott and I are well and we love our new place. Halloween is around the corner and all of the costumes Ive been looking at are hardly creative. Im going to be Amy Winehouse. But, not normal Amy. Beat up bloody as fuck Amy. It should be amazing. Tonight Sunni and Holly are coming over so I can cut some hurr. And but that I mean hair. And other things. They are literally the most fun friends I've ever had. And I dont just mean them two. I mean all of you girls. Also, my twenty first birthday in in one month. I'm so happy. It's more of a finally kind of thing but it always is with us november birthdays. Moving on. School is good. I haven't missed too many classes or anything. Except for today. Cramps you know. I really think Im doing well this semester and I CAN NOT wait to never have to go to school again. But it's going to be nice to have a degree. Now lastly and most importantly, Winter clothing. I was looking through all my billions of clothes and I've realized how much I don't have. I went to Europe this past summer and I was starting my winter collection but honestly Euros have ruined everything. I thought I could come back with alot more. But I did manage to get a few awesome key pieces that have really begun to inspire the rest of my winter wardrobe. I have managed to find a lot of nice jackets and pea coats. So I'm covered in that department. Just dont ask me about tops or shoes. Because I've got none. I went crazy on the summer shopping and didnt think ahead. Typical. But I got a few steady cash days coming up. Birthday. Christmas. Etc. Not that worried. I'm going to include some updated pictures of me and stuff just to suffice your curiosity.  Current Mood: accomplished | | Thursday, May 18th, 2006 | | 10:16 am |
Everyone always asks me.
How are things going. Well. I am working. I'm up for a head host postion. Its a big deal. And I've done everything I need to do to be able to get a serving postion. All in good time. I love where I work. The diner is amazing. Scott& I. We are doing well. This morning I woke up with him again. And. He loves to kiss me. Its almost a year. Thats insane. Moving out. Originaly we are not supposed to get the apartment until Aug first. Because of renovations. Hardwood floors! Most excited. But. It is a possibility that it will be July first. I hope so. School. It's going great. Almost done. Almost done. I should make it out alive and with decent grades too. My hair. Is getting longer. I want it long. And very light brown. Im enjoying the Mary-kate reddish color. But. Im going to play around with it when it grows two more inches. OH AND. I'm getting a new car. Considering how bad mine is now. Tear. I think it will be a Jetta. |
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